Nonsense but forgiven

A few days ago I was quite disturbed. I keep on having the thought where this World has nothing worth for me to move on or stay on. Everyone around me seems to criticise about me. They seems not to understand me though they said they do. They backfire me with no reason. They even curse me with joy and teased me. Some are taking me for granted. Some doesn't show respect to me. They thought I am telling lies. Some even twisted what I have said(in order to protect themselves) and causes me becoming telling lies. They thought I am ego and selfish. They said I am the type of "Kacang lupakan kulit". They said I had changed a lot. They said I am no longer who I was.

I am quite sad of all those comments. Although it's not something that they said directly to me. But someone was passing the message to me and some of them I just overheard it. The worst thing is they can act like they are very nice to me. As if nothing happen. I know this is how life is. Seriously can't think of a reason why they would say all these though I have no bad intention towards them nor hurt them before. I just couldn't understand why they exist.

I was driving very fast and couldn't find a solution to calm myself down. Suddenly there is one voice spoke to me. He said "forgive..." - straight away I slowed down my car and was calmed. Then I start to think again, yeah...why couldn't I forgive? I have uncounted sins that Jesus had forgiven me! Why I can't forgive them? I also realised I am so sinful that sometimes I had repeated my sins but God still forgive me. Yeah, perhaps I should forgive them as well as myself.

Disclaimer: Whatever is said above, I have no intention for any suicide activity. I am not that stupid ;)


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